若你问我，我的儿时记忆是什么，我会告诉你那是黑白模糊。
我开心吗；我不知道，我的记忆体储存着都是泪与痛。
当您说我的不完美时，是不是很有娱乐性？
当您嘲笑我的丑陋时，是不是快乐似神仙？
当您批评我的迟钝时，是不是你孩子比我聪明多了？
您，是所谓小孩子们的口中大人，是孩子有礼貌的称呼对象之一。
当初，你说的一切，恕我恶言相对，你很没脑。
别问为什么我视你为隐性人，因为我不希望我们之间有任何的互动，我觉得很恶心。
没有人保护当时的我，我也得学会不奢望任何人保护我。
我的自我保护，就是让我好好的过我的生活，不再被你的丑言左右一生。
可是，那话题早就是我敏感的课题了，在这一项目里，我真的很讨厌这样的我。
别说我身上隐形的伤口不是您造成的，别说我的问题，别说抱歉。
请你别再以亲戚的身份做我的亲人，继续做陌生人。
我的过去已经弥补不了，至少未来我努力不让你有机会继续侵袭我的心。
现在，我不必你孩子逊，我甚至是家族里看见的另外一个孩子。
我不在乎我曾经在你们眼中是无可救药的笨，“比”和“各”都分不清。
至少现在，我给自己一个很好的交代，that's alright to be mistreated .
我自己负责我的明天。
大人，我也不再是小孩，你们的举动我有份制止。
我会用一辈子纠正你们的脑袋与心脏，好让你们有脑袋说正确的话，和有将心比心的好心脏。
我发誓，我的假笑在您们面前才有，因为我有了让我由心而笑的另外他人。
Friday, April 22, 2011
Monday, April 4, 2011
H and A
能不能不要再这样无所事事了阿，我真的很废料咯。
所以，这恼人的问题必须被解决。
因此呢，Ms Wong帮组我找生物老师。
其一的原因，我即将拿医学系，却对生物的知识陌生。这是很不行的，是不是。
还好我很有自知自明，决定找老师增加知识去。
另外一个理由是，我头脑生锈了，废人的日子果真的很好，只是不适合连续数个月。
明天还得驾车还书去。
好懒惰啊~
生活作息需要稍微调整了。
整理好所有的文件，就得寄给那所大学了。
印度啊，2年半很快的拉。
不要怕不要担心。
所以，这恼人的问题必须被解决。
因此呢，Ms Wong帮组我找生物老师。
其一的原因，我即将拿医学系，却对生物的知识陌生。这是很不行的，是不是。
还好我很有自知自明，决定找老师增加知识去。
另外一个理由是，我头脑生锈了，废人的日子果真的很好，只是不适合连续数个月。
明天还得驾车还书去。
好懒惰啊~
生活作息需要稍微调整了。
整理好所有的文件，就得寄给那所大学了。
印度啊，2年半很快的拉。
不要怕不要担心。
Friday, April 1, 2011
How to say
Sing your lungs loud out . Crap .
How hard have you try ? Hey bud , I sang until my soundtrack gone , ain't you see I've tried my best of the best .
Ah ya , I see , so ? So , I've tried so hard as you can see , yet you gave me nothing .
Here comes a voice , " Son , you do tried hard , it's undeniable . But you do in the wrong way , that's the reason you didn't make any changes . Try again , try the other way this time , try to be out of the box . "
What if I tell you I started not to believe myself .
What if I stretch out my arm and reach for help .
What if no one out there lift me out from here .
What if I'm the one who behave so stubbornly not to let myself go .
Is it okay to get some help , but how ?
I should have stop wandering and doubting about the unknowns that soon reach for me .
Because I have no idea on what's coming next .
My life has already got its plan and I supposed do whatever I need to do .
Pray for the answer to be clear , pray for not to be anxious as You're there for me .
Yet , You know humans are quite weak to stand firmly on there foot .
Yes , indeed .
[Don't spoil what you have by worrying about what you have not. Never let your hearts desire become a heart disease! ]
Seeking for the strength that about to depart inside myself .
The road is rough , so I got to be tough .
How hard have you try ? Hey bud , I sang until my soundtrack gone , ain't you see I've tried my best of the best .
Ah ya , I see , so ? So , I've tried so hard as you can see , yet you gave me nothing .
Here comes a voice , " Son , you do tried hard , it's undeniable . But you do in the wrong way , that's the reason you didn't make any changes . Try again , try the other way this time , try to be out of the box . "
What if I tell you I started not to believe myself .
What if I stretch out my arm and reach for help .
What if no one out there lift me out from here .
What if I'm the one who behave so stubbornly not to let myself go .
Is it okay to get some help , but how ?
I should have stop wandering and doubting about the unknowns that soon reach for me .
Because I have no idea on what's coming next .
My life has already got its plan and I supposed do whatever I need to do .
Pray for the answer to be clear , pray for not to be anxious as You're there for me .
Yet , You know humans are quite weak to stand firmly on there foot .
Yes , indeed .
[Don't spoil what you have by worrying about what you have not. Never let your hearts desire become a heart disease! ]
Seeking for the strength that about to depart inside myself .
The road is rough , so I got to be tough .
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