到处都看到大家说2012即将来临，什么感想之类的。
我并没那么激动，比起之前是可以这么说。


我想，很多女孩都喜欢星星的形状。
对，其实星星很美，很优雅。
如果有一天你发现行星的真面目，你是不是还会喜欢它呢?
相信这个伦理是很普遍的：当你远看某些事物的时候，你会觉得它似乎完美无缺；近距离，怎么破绽百出怎么不是我想象中那样。


2011年，这一年你做了什么。
有没有发现真面目，你是否长大看透了一些事情。

‘唯一不曾改变的，就是不停改变。’
国家的政治也无时无刻在改变，我们生命里的所有也默默地变化；而我们呢就是不断改变自己接受已改变的事实。

家人，是我怎么都不会放弃的人。
我愿意为了他们做很多事情，包括牺牲自己的幸福。
幸福，真正的意思是什么，我并不知道。
任何人都不能改变我对家人的爱和付出，就算家人无意间伤害了我。
其实，我们都不曾思考一件事情：家人，也是第一次成为你的家人。他们都需要学习如何爱对方，可是第一次谁没跌倒。若因为家人不小心的伤害而认为他们不爱你，那你真的需要自我检讨。请问你，你真的一次也没伤害过你的家人吗? 所以，为何家人可以不断原谅你的抱歉，而你不能。那你是不是还是一个长不大的小孩呢?



最后，我想对那位也特别的女孩说些话。
你是不可能会看到我所写的。
我喜欢你整整2011年,我不曾付出很多，所以你别认为给不到我答案而觉得负担。
若我们有未来，希望那个时候的你我都是成熟有担当的成人。
现在我只想成为你的朋友，陪着你。


2012，我们一起出发。
:)

等着等着，所有的事情都面目全非，而我依然住在我的世界。
因为不喜欢一直强调自己多么自卑，所以我不曾奢求能得到你的任何回应。
如果能一直待着你身边，我希望能当像家人一样的朋友。

昨天被说我的想法很消极，我不认为是她说错，的确是。
但与其说消极不如说现实。当你找到一个你想一辈子有她在身边的人时候，你会发现你会愿意做一切，是要对方不会消失在你的生命里。
原因很理智，虽然对方的开心不是因为你，但是至少当她需要一个人陪伴你就在她的身边。

我只要这样简单继续喜欢你。一年过了，接着俩年三年...
我也说过，即使有天我身边那个人不是你，无可否认的你还是最重要的那位。
我不会越来越喜欢你，不多不少，一直保持着一样的水平。




As long as you're happy, I'm satisfy with everything.
:)

I never promise anything, if it irritates you I've got nothing to say.
I would rather not giving promises because I may break it one day and you'll be much more disappointed.
Too much of unpredictable things will coming up, whether you want it or not, you have to accept and take it.
And, I don't blame you if you have no sense what I had gone through for my past.

I brought up by hatred, hatred drives my motivation. Does it sounds weird? Yes it does.
People around me had helped me for times and consoled me to let it go so I would be redeemed.
I can't, yes part of me am stubborn enough and I am nothing if I put my hatred down.
People do changed, and I accept this fact.
I am wonder most of the time that 'will I change to someone that I never want to?'
Indeed, I found myself have changed in my way of thinking, to someone who think realistically, to the extend that I would never do in the past.
Frankly speaking, I'd turned into the one I dislike much when I was a little girl.

I have a thought, that money and power are the things that can probably change the situation at my will.
Past doesn't hurt me anymore, hmm no it's not true. It's still stabbing me all the time.
Through lots of incidents, human changes their attitudes toward everything.

"If you know my past, you'll understand why I'm doing this."
I don't think people will know your past, stop explaining yourself, no one cares the hurt you got and the scars you have.
To those who care, they will just be your side silently and being understanding. I've got few of them and I'm satisfied with current conditions.
I'm so me when I confront with them.
Such an onion, I'm wrapped with masks. Leave me alone and do not try to understand me, or else you'll may get more hurt than just being tears.

Left aside dream

A heart-warming phone call that made me fully realized that I'm the one who holding the decision to choose how my future will look like.

Never have such a strong feeling before. 

The power of chasing dream seems so real to me now.

One step at a time, this doesn't mean I don't plan for further but it's realistic. 

Because, you can't really plan so much in a little time.

As you already know the direction that you want for your future, ignore the tiny obstacles and focus on the main thing - DREAM.

Now, I've found you my dream, don't stay hidden.

I'll make you a truth, a fact.