I never promise anything, if it irritates you I've got nothing to say.
I would rather not giving promises because I may break it one day and you'll be much more disappointed.
Too much of unpredictable things will coming up, whether you want it or not, you have to accept and take it.
And, I don't blame you if you have no sense what I had gone through for my past.

I brought up by hatred, hatred drives my motivation. Does it sounds weird? Yes it does.
People around me had helped me for times and consoled me to let it go so I would be redeemed.
I can't, yes part of me am stubborn enough and I am nothing if I put my hatred down.
People do changed, and I accept this fact.
I am wonder most of the time that 'will I change to someone that I never want to?'
Indeed, I found myself have changed in my way of thinking, to someone who think realistically, to the extend that I would never do in the past.
Frankly speaking, I'd turned into the one I dislike much when I was a little girl.

I have a thought, that money and power are the things that can probably change the situation at my will.
Past doesn't hurt me anymore, hmm no it's not true. It's still stabbing me all the time.
Through lots of incidents, human changes their attitudes toward everything.

"If you know my past, you'll understand why I'm doing this."
I don't think people will know your past, stop explaining yourself, no one cares the hurt you got and the scars you have.
To those who care, they will just be your side silently and being understanding. I've got few of them and I'm satisfied with current conditions.
I'm so me when I confront with them.
Such an onion, I'm wrapped with masks. Leave me alone and do not try to understand me, or else you'll may get more hurt than just being tears.